Family Portrait

A family portrait

 One moment in time

Of fake smiles

Intense stillness

To be forever framed

In the still life of a picture

 

 

 Young and Naïve you are

Filled with innocence and wonder

So bold and trusting

You bat your eyes in amazement

As if each new experience is an adventure

A quest to be conquered

Gibberish laughter and squeamish contentment

 Are often readily interchanged with one another

As you move with your new and unsteady wobble

Plop you go back onto the ground only to reach for your bottle

And silently suck with grave contentment

5/03

 

A mothers protection 

Nestled in the warmth of the blanket

A deep and rhythmic breathing is heard

Completely attuned to its internal safety

The baby slumbers peacefully

In the tenderness of her mothers arm

 

 

A mothers challenge

 

Oh sweet, rambunctious free spirited child

Whose determination soars ever so high

Unruly, and disobedient, naughty in nature

Yet, loving from the simplest purity of heart

How do I tame your forbidden impulses?

Without restricting those well intensions

A mothers challenge and dilemma

Constantly testing my parental creativity

Often exhausting my fused emotions

Whats a weary and fatigued mother to do?

My patience is uncertain, with minimal tolerance

My heart is hurt and sunken from exhaustion

I take time alone to rejuvenate and refresh

Ready to step into my demanding parental role

Devoted and focused, prepared to tackle anything

 Providing you with loving and gentle guidance

Judy

 

For Bill

Along the parks walkway

Children play carefree

Lovers stroll along

And the birds can be

Heard chirping merrily

 

The park bench that sits

Straight down from the shelter

Is that special place

I hold dear in my heart

 

In a moment of passion

That was the place

You first whispered

Heavenly devotes of love

 

From that day on

Youve been my best friend

In Sept of 1998

I had the honor

of becoming your wife

 

I knew from that day forward

We would be soul mates

Lovers who connect intimately

With a divine and loving passion

Love Always,

Judy 6/03

 

finding safety

Lying helpless on your side

You tend to your broken wing

Bent and ripped unable to be airborne

You look to be fortified and nourished

Like a helpless child

Unable to take flight

Your eyes close softly

And you long for the days

When you were warm and safe

In your secure cocoon

Where you were insulated and protected

Shield from the realities of the harsh world

All was safe and unknown to you

Accept the warmth of your cocoon

Like a baby in the safety of her mothers womb

If only we could all find this sense of safety

The world would be in safe hands

Butterflies could fly free

Children would be protected from harm

All beings could close their eyes at night

Feeling the softness of their pillow

Knowing they could again awaken to

The dawning of a new day

 

In the absense of the moonlight

In the absence of the moonlight

My heart mourns your loss

Things no longer matter

And nothing seems bright

 

In the absence of the moonlight

My heart doesnt flicker

I constantly stare into space

And no longer want to write

 

In the absence of the moonlight

Nothing makes sense

I lie restless alone

No longer wanting to fight

 

In the absence of the moonlight

I stare blindly into space

I look up to God for help

Praying one day I will be all right

The cleansing of father sky

ADVERTISEMENT Thunder struck with a vengeance in the dark and fallen sky Begging to be recognized in the loudness of all its wonder Father sky answered in anger flashing in streakiness of light The harassing light overflowed the backdrop of the earth Illuminating all of its fear with such intense brightness For an instant, the earth retreated to momentary stillness Wounded thunder then roared its furious sound with all its might The sound echoed throughout the peaks and valleys As its repetition reverberated repeatedly ,rain began to pour Father sky cried his tears of sadness attempting to cleanse Only to release the first layer of its melancholy As the rain continued dispersing amongst all of mother earth The long-standing drought had come to an end Father sky was ready to grieve his tears of sadness As the rain poured down contently, thunder wounded to quiet Lightning no longer flashed through the sky Only the pitter-patter of the rain could be heard on the stillness of the earth Judy Stasek Corner Shadows In the corner in the shadows A little girl soundlessly sits She dries her tears silently Her father had a raging fit                         She clutches herself closely To comfort her bruised arm Closely holding it to her heart Her fathers done a lot of harm   She can move it around slightly Grateful the bones arent broken He smacked her with a bat Because she shouldnt have spoken   She trembles with great intensity Praying to mend her wounded soul God answers prays from all One day she will heal whole   Dady's forbidden love To the man who helped conceive me For that Daddy, I thank you For giving me life The only gift I ever received From you   You have no place in my life Those rights were infringed upon long ago When you crossed the boundary Of father daughter love Teaching me only hurt and anguishes Bounded by forbidden love   No less of a woman I am For the internal damage you did The boundaries youve crossed Have made me a stronger, More beautiful, and compassionate woman     In the midst of this strong woman Is a little girl who weeps incessantly Within the depths of her soul For the intrusion of daddys forbidden love © Judy Stasek November 2003   Devins place in Heaven   Tears ran down me in disbelief Your life was taken so quickly As if it was stolen by a thief   I grief for the loose of your smile You were so young and beautiful I wanted you to stay with me for a while   You were to little to go to heaven What could they want with a bright And loving angel who was only eleven?   It has been one year since you passed away I miss you  a lot and think of you often I know you had to go, but I wanted you to stay   There is now a beautiful angel named Devin Though she is missed so much on earth She is  now safe and loved up in heaven   Judy   Written in loving memory of Devin F 1990-2003 On the bed you rest all day Licking your fur, soft and gray Nothing to do but sleep and eat When the mood strikes, getting a treat     When you want company its back to bed Your soft fur often rubs against my head You cuddle with me anytime of the day I listen to you purr in that special way   Youre my best friend tried and true I hold you secure and love you too I pet your fur and nuzzle you close Unconditionally, your love is what I need most Judy     My mirrors reflection   There I stand steadfast and startled   As I stare at my shrinking body  In the facade of the mirror Inside beneath the surface  I feel insecure and betrayed Carrying the inner demons Fears and insecurities bestowed Upon me from the bitter And angry voices of my past   I whirl around divinely  As I admire my skin and bone Starvation has paid off For I am thin and sexy As I watch myself withering away Gaining a sense of inner control I feel a false sense of power Which I lack in the outside world   Enhancing my sense of outward control By starving my insides I watch pieces of my heart And soul shrivel away to nothingness